INTERNSHIP

August 27 2023

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I told myself to document the last two weeks of the internship to immortalize the moment, but we were too busy to capture good footage.

 

I was never excited about this internship, but I had to admit that the whole experience made me realize a lot of things.

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I remember crying on my way home as I learned that one of the patients I had talked to was diagnosed with incurable cancer.

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I remember warding alone and getting informed that the patient was being resuscitated, just to be welcomed in the laboratory with a request for cadaver release under the same name.

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It even aches a bit to know that one of the longest patients that we have known expired, and there is no moment that I didn’t try to catch my breath in MICU.

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I don’t want to make this sound dramatic, but I couldn’t help but think about all the people that I love. It is always uncomfortable to talk about endings, especially if you have no choice but to go on in spite of someone’s ending.

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This internship made me realize the value of time - to never rush, yet never compromise in keeping up with merely day and night. I’ve learned that time is not just a measured period, but an irreversible sequence of events and irreplaceable moments you’ve shared with your loved ones.

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Mortality is truly the most humbling ground and death is inevitable no matter who you are. Embracing that fact will make you wiser in prioritizing what truly matters to you - to be more intentional and have more courage to carry on with grace.

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I was never excited about this internship, but this whole experience made me pass through the hallways we used to walk by and savor it.

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This too shall pass…  And I have to make the most out of it to keep in touch with time.